a zen moment .. 1

Posted in in a day .. on September 5th, 2016 by grdnstff – Be the first to comment
our favourite blanket ..

our favourite blanket ..

my niece, andrea, made this blanket for frank and me .. a christmas gift from three or four ago .. isn’t it beautifull .. we love it .. the colours .. the geometric design .. the accumulation of squares .. we use this blanket from autumn to spring .. it goes on as the weather cools .. and stays on until it warms up again .. this blanket surrounds us with warmth .. and comfort .. and love .. we’re blessed to have this blanket .. we’re so gratefull for it ..

usually .. when i make the bed i throw the blanket on top .. straighten the sides .. the ends .. check the finished product .. turn around .. and walk into my day ..

however .. every now and again i have what i think of as zen moments ..

had one this morning .. made the bed .. straightened out the sheets .. the quilt .. put the pillows in place .. reached for the blanket .. threw it on the bed .. and .. instead of just pulling it this way and that .. i looked at it .. saw the pattern in it .. and started straightening all the squares .. aligned each one .. up and down .. and across ..


as i carried on .. meticulously touching each square .. straightening the lines to their original shape .. i thought of andrea as she was making this blanket .. thinking of the gift she was making us .. choosing colours .. considering the pattern .. then patiently knitting all those many squares to the same size .. placing the finished squares into the chosen pattern .. then stitching them all together .. finally folding the blanket up .. sending it off to us .. with love ..

you might be able to tell .. from the photo .. and the babbling of these after thoughts .. that this was a zen moment for me .. playing with knitted squares .. mindfully pulling and teasing the stretched fabric .. back into square shapes .. or .. diamonds .. as in the photo above ..

it actually took a few concentrated .. mindfull .. zen moments ..

so enjoyable ..

thanks, darling andrea ..




“love .. peace .. and happiness” ..

Posted in other musings .. on January 11th, 2016 by grdnstff – 5 Comments

my friend passed away on friday .. january 7 .. 2016 .. at 12:15 .. according to the clock that hung on the wall .. of her room in palliative care .. i was given a gift that day .. i was invited to be present at her death .. i arrived about ten minutes before her last outbreath ..

i was present when she zoomed off .. like the bright and shining star she is ..

i’ll miss our time together .. no more heading over to her house to bring her outside for a walkabout her garden .. drinking tea and babbling about plants .. or finding her out playing happily in her garden .. or searching the aisles of value village together .. or looking out my kitchen window to see her peering at plants in my garden .. before we’d head off to play in someone else’s garden .. no more sitting by her pond .. pondering life’s lessons together .. no more hugs of joy .. or sadness .. or misplaced angers .. or moments of quiet peacefullness .. i’ll miss these times with joe ..

for fifteen years we gardened other people’s gardens .. side by side .. all the while learning as we gardened our own .. in any one of these gardens we shared our joy .. shared our sads .. and mads .. and glads .. and our good .. and our shared sense of gratitude .. for the wonderfull lives we live .. for the opportunity to meet as friends in this lifetime ..

i believe we’ll still do all of these things together .. we’ll just be about it a wee bit differently .. the physicality of my friend is gone .. not my friend ..

i believe joe and i have shared many lifetimes together .. that we have always been friends .. that we are souls that will always come together .. again .. and again ..

i’ll miss seeing her coming down the road, though .. wheelbarrow loaded up for the day’s gardening .. big smile on her face .. happy to be here .. on the planet .. ready to wander down the road with me .. side by side .. into our day ..

and yet .. see .. she’s right here .. now ..

“love .. peace .. and happiness” .. my dear friend ..  💕